Red Alert!

Yes...I'm getting more red, like really red, not the kind of tan or tan line I would like to flaunt around the pool this summer.  I'm very tender, itchy, and I find myself saying "ouch" more and more.  Stir in a little fatigue, and I feel I'm falling apart.  I had my follow up with Dr. J. yesterday, and was given some special bandages to put on the area should the skin start to breakdown.  Even though I'm nearing the end, I was informed that the breakdown can still occur in these last treatments, and still occur for up to 2 weeks afterwards.  Today, the radiation tech said that it looks close to happening, and to start using polysporin cream...  I'm not a very happy camper this week to say the least.  I have to keep the end in sight since it's only 4 more treatments away.  I'm sure that it seems like nothing to the outsider, but I'm done with it all.  I've had enough now... buhbye radiation!

It occurred to me that I haven't blogged much at all about my hair.  It's finally growing, and pretty soon I'll look much less like a cancer patient, and more like a girl with a short stylish haircut!  Yippee!  I think a lot of you have already seen me in the privacy of my own home sans Zilya or Cece.  I have become more brave and am now taking her off at the gym.  I even went to Indigo the other day el fresco!  I think I had a few looks, I'm sure people were wondering why I choose to wear such short hair, but oh well.  It felt good.  On another hair front, I did lose all body hair if you ever questioned that.  My eyebrows went down to nothing, as did my eyelashes.  The real killer for me was losing my eyelashes.  It's very frustrating trying to apply mascara to basically... nothing.  At least I could fill in my eyebrows, like so many women do that don't have cancer.  My eyelashes are taking far too long to grow for my liking.  One would think based on my hair growth on my head that they would be all be back, but they still aren't.  Now please be discreet and don't look too hard the next time I see you, just trust me...

Thanks to all my Angels during the last week and half for taking me to lunches, hercepton and RT.  Tara, Mia, Angie, Michelle, Lisa, Brooke and Nancy.  You are all so dear to me, thank you for your friendship, love, and for caring for me.  I am so lucky to have you in my life.


Countdown....4 more to go!  Last day, Wednesday, May 11th!

Jill xo