Better Days

Sleep is better for me now, albeit thanks to the aid of some good ol' pharmaceuticals! Most of you moms out there can relate to the what sleep deprivation can do to someone...

Last Friday, I had my last drain removed, yay! That was such a relief, to be able to move around with relative ease, and enjoy the long weekend without carrying an extra appendage around was heaven. The simple things... Friday began with the sun shinning, and I was surrounded by great people all day that helped to uplift my overall spirit! Thank you to Ryan for taking me to my appt., and Thank you to Elena & Dave for coming over and making the family a wonderful, gourmet meal, the BEST homemade pizza I've ever had! Can we do it again? The weekend con't to be a lot of the same, good friends, good food, great company, and lots of laughter. Georgia, you had me in stitches on Sat. night! LOVED IT! I really do love being surrounded by people. I've always known that. Monday turned out to be a really quiet day, and for most, this would be welcoming, but for me, I was too quiet. It was still alright though.

I know that many of you may be wondering if I've been resting, and you're worried about disturbing me, but please don't be. I'm getting my sleep at night, and I'm told by my physician that in order to help me sleep at night that I'm not to nap/rest during the day, that way I'm exhausted by the time it's bedtime, increasing the likelihood of getting to sleep unassisted. I've never been much of a napper anyhow. I started driving yesterday, and had some great retail therapy! I was exhausted at bedtime, thought I would try sleeping unassisted before my doc's appt. today, but couldn't sleep, so I took my sleepy happy pill. It's doctor approved for the time being, I'm also exploring other methods to help me get to sleep.

I had my follow up appt with Dr. H. today, that went well. I have another week until I can 'walk briskly', in other words increase my heart rate. Another 4 weeks, and I hit the gym, (miss you all, can't wait!). He thinks that my pathology just came back, so I need to contact Dr. Mac to schedule an appt. to have them read. I'm given the green light to travel, and really hope that I can get a girl's trip in before all my chemo treatments start, please cross your fingers for me.

Now begins the other appts....tomorrow, I am scheduled for several CT Scans...yeah, when they put you in the tube and ask you to not move for an hour or two...we'll see how well that goes. Friday, I'm scheduled for a Muga Scan (heart), to measure how much blood my heart is pumping with every beat. Monday, I'm scheduled for a Bone Scan. My life is consumed with being a patient, I should just get used to it. The thing about some of these scans is that they are described as injecting nuclear matter into me, just sounds so...gross. Putting this foreign shit in me. Again, I suppose it will be nothing compared to the poison that I will be receiving when it comes to the chemo. Once all these tests/scans are completed, they will determine how healthy I am, which will in turn determine how aggressively they can treat the cancer as compared to pathology report and how aggressively they want to treat it. It will all come together soon, I'm sure. Thank you again to all my Angels who are watching my kids during these appt., and driving me to them. You've made it really easy for me, and the kids have been so happy to have their little friends to play with , THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart.

Once my appt Monday is out of the way, I'm really hoping to be able to catch up with some of my Angels out there for coffee, lunch, a visit, whatever! I look forward to catching up.

It's all just surreal. Sometimes it just feels like a bad dream, and that I will wake up from it...

Love, Jill xo